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Jul 12, 2015

Wimbledon 2015 - Men's final

Novak Djokovic, the defending champion beats Roger Federer 7-6, 6-7, 6-4, 6-3, and slams his dream of eighth Wimbledon title to grass (pun intended). What a match it was? Watching Novak play was absolutely thrilling. And watching Federer, it looked like even God tends to bow to mortals once in a while. But, seriously, how good was Novak?

Roger Federer, in this Wimbledon has not been his usual self. His backhands have found the nets more often than not, his aces were not as recurrent as they once were and though he volleyed quite a lot, his lazy elegance was not as eloquent as it once had been. Yet, he still conquered the court and stole people’s heart. His semifinals win against Andy Murray was vintage Federer.

If people had their say on the Centre Court, for the final, the match would have gone well into the fifth set with Federer claiming his eighth Wimbledon title. But alas, Novak Djokovic ruled the court! He played aggressively, not budging an inch and his base line play was ferocious. He created unforced errors and played blistering shots that had no answers in Federer’s vast repertoire. He produced winners at his will, to combat from the corner he was backed into and Federer had to bow, despite his valiant effort.

Federer had his moments too. The way he set Djokovic up to claim the second set tie breaker was awesome. His aces were a treat to the eye, but his cross court winners stole my heart. Though I was supporting Djokovic, I could not help but applaud Federer’s every point. Federer, in his unassuming self is easy to adore and his game demands respect, from the audience and the opponent. And even at his worst, he still produces the master stokes. But, his brilliance was insufficient. At 33, his game is still solid, he still is playing awesome rallies, yet, when the younger opponent with his ferocious returns intends to reign, he just had to accept that his best was insufficient.

But, I find it hard to say it was Federer at his best in the final. Federer, who could break any opponents serve with ease was fighting to hold on to his serve, not a common occurrence. He who could produce drop volleys and blistering back hands, could only find net at the moment it mattered. He who could read the opponent like a book and change tactics at will, could do nothing but push on for just one more game. All this culminated his dream of creating history. Whether he wins another Wimbledon or not, he still is the unconquered king of the hearts of all the Centre Court audience.

And Novak Djokovic, overcame the pressure of playing a maestro in front of an un-supporting audience and produced a game of deeper depth with such aplomb, that it was clear who the winner was, the moment he took the first set. It was only a matter of time when the errors of the opponent were too many, and his returns were too good to play. His first serves were tight, his returns were ruthless, his break points were spectacular, his drop volleys stunning and his rallies heartwarming. He raised his game with every stroke, he demanded nothing but brilliance as counter-attack. He stood tall to produce breathtaking tennis and took the maestro on his backcourt and owned it. It was difficult to not fawn at his display of aggression and smile at him eating the grass off centre court after winning. If his shout of victory was anything to go by, there is more of that yet to come!!

I enjoyed this Wimbledon immensely!! And this era, where there is a champion in every second name of the game, it sure is a golden era for tennis... Looking forward to the US Open :)

Jul 7, 2015

I will find a way...

I am not in the right frame of mind, at this very moment. My body is weak, my defenses are low, physically, I am exhausted and mentally, I don't seem to have the strength to wake up the next day. When I sleep, I wonder if I can wake up tomorrow and more importantly, if I want to wake up tomorrow. When I wake up, I wonder how I intend to get through the day and when the night befalls, I am thankful for the days closure. It is easy to give up, to close my eyes to the world and let myself wallow. And because it is easy, I need to fight, to push. I am trying, but for one moment, just one moment, I want to succumb, to weep, to mourn. Yet, I cannot seem to find that solace that grants me that freedom of expression. A good cry may help, but that is not my way. I cannot seem to find tears for pain that cuts too deep. I cry for silly things, I cry when I am angry, but when my heart feels like it is about to rip itself out, how can few tears assuage its feeling? Tears cannot make me forget, that moment of joy. And the pain I feel, cannot help me climb the boulder that is planted in the midst of my path. Yet, I need to find a way. I need to overcome the grief that wants to push me beneath. I need to find a way around it.

Grief is such a funny thing. It disappears in company, it wanders down the street when you are focused on something, it buries itself under a blanket when you take a nap, it sits on a chair with its reading glasses when you are working... it bides its time and comes back with a whip, ready to lash at you and even though you are prepared, the pain is just unbearable. How can it not be? You ignored it for the  better part of the day and it wants its vengeance. And just like a trained body, you get used to the ache and that is when it starts to numb. And until that moment, one just has to cope. And I am trying. A couple of weeks ago, I was listening to one of my colleague giving a passionate dialogue of living in the moment. For a moment there, I wondered, how can you live in a moment, when all the moments of the past up until that very moment contributed to that moment. It is not easy. Today, I seem to be embracing it, for that momentary relief, to live in the now. Is this one way of coping up? I don't know. What I know, right now, is that, however impossible and improbable life seems to be, it will get better. It will get easier. And I will find a way, to move on.

I will find a way...